When You Know It’s Time for Change, But You’re Stuck

It’s been a month since I’ve written here. Not because I don’t have anything to say…if anything, my mind has been overflowing. But I’ve been quiet because, honestly, I’ve been stuck.

There’s a certain kind of ache that comes when you know something needs to change, but you have no idea where to start. You feel the urgency in your bones, but the next step feels blurry. And the longer you sit in it, the heavier it gets.

That’s where I’ve been lately.

Wanting change. Needing change. But unsure which direction to move in, or even if I have the resources, energy, or courage to pull it off.

There’s fear in it. Fear that I’ll choose the wrong thing. Fear that I’ll pour what little I have into something that doesn’t work out. Fear of judgment. Fear of failure. Fear of being even more stuck than before.

And then there’s the practical part: money. Making big moves…especially life-shifting ones…costs something. Sometimes more than I have. And it’s hard to dream big when you’re just trying to make sure the bills are paid.

But here’s what I’m holding onto today: it’s okay to feel stuck. It’s okay to not know. It’s okay to sit quietly with your fear for a minute, as long as you don’t let it take the driver’s seat forever.

Maybe the first step isn’t some grand leap. Maybe it’s just saying out loud: “I want more for myself.” Maybe it’s making a list. Sending one email. Cleaning out one drawer. Praying one simple prayer: Lord, Show me the next right thing.

I don’t have the answers yet. But I’m showing up today, writing this, as my small act of movement. It’s not everything…but it’s something.

If you’re feeling this too, you’re not alone. Let’s start here, together.